Crossroads

Never thought that wondering is part of my life 

Wonder why God created men 

Wonder why the sky is blue, the grass is green 

Wonder why I can't see the wind yet feeling it all over 

Who colour the sky with rainbow ?

Life; full of experiences

Struggles and triumphs

Love and sorrows 

Choices and crossroads 

There's always decision to made every single day of life
I slowly placed them one by one ahead of me, told myself actually it isnt that difficult or scary to make decisions. They are people and objects passing through life-  imagination bought me deeper and deeper but aren't gonna come true. Fear crippled me, I fell into a deep black hole. Closed me eyes tight.
Because we matter that we would be able to change broken into beautiful
We are precious, valued and priceless in the eyes of the Lord.

I was at a place of crossroads. Standing In the middle of the road. Turning to my left, right front and back. I wonder which way should I go. I wonder and speculate if heading ahead whichever the green man hits or waiting for the one I desire to march forward? Because there's no turning back once making this decision.
You know what? If you question me, I am even doubting myself if i can answer you. What do i really want ? It bought me all over the place.

Confusion twirled me around like merry-go-round. Its time I presume to pray, and believe.
My question is: Are you still living in One's heart or are you already in the midst of vanishing and walking out?