A Beautiful Melody...

This rain and hurricane seems like a drama to me, to my family, to my life. The medical terms became so factual, and presently existing in my mind. It frightens me with all of them because I m aware of what's happening.  The seriousness of it,  yet I m crippled- unable to do anything..

The process of waiting especially for these 4 days were a toilsome. Receiving calls; rustling down; speaking to the medical professionals, a typical gathering of relatives. Receiving calls, rushing down and the cycle went on. Witnessing one's own love one lying there,  gave me room to broke down with tears- it's overwhelming.

Standing beside your presence; I saw your eye brow, your eyes, your nose and mouth. I thought to myself, is this my first time standing still to look at you so clearly? I realised that I hold certain traits of yours. My blood flows with yours. All I could do is to stand still, just waiting, My slient prayer was that I long to be in your embrace which I never had for my twenty years, I love to run to you when I fall so that you would encourage me, I craved to lean on your shoulder to hug by you; but I never had. I desire to be like a little girl just like any other to tear in front of you so that I wouldn't fear to be vulnerable in front of people. But still, you are loved :')

You taught me to be strong, you taught me that everything would be ok after tomorrow, you taught me to love without a word spoken, you taught me courage when others don't, you kept all things to yourself so that we won't worry but this time round... Always the little in your own special ways unlike others

The tears flowed outwardly, it pains on the inside but i knew that you heard every prayer and worshipsongs sang. 

When all Is cold and filled with fear

There's no one else just You and me

Facing isolation, voices of thoughts all around

All around me

Let all my worries run behind      

So that peace could sprint ahead

All the hope I have

              I give them to you                  

All to You

      Chrous:            

Lord, here's my life

Here's my fear and cry

There's nothing I can do

 But to surrender all my life    

(Repeat)

            Bridge:                

I can sing through the storms

Dancing all around the rain

Lift my eyes above the wave

Hoping through the hurricane

Let my faith arise to hymn

A beautiful melody

Now its time to face reality

Needless to say a single word
...

I hope to complete this song, prayerfully when He allows me too and i really love the bridge which i need to find a beautiful melody within :') 

In a sinking ship, learning to hold tight. Knowing that You are a Faithful God for You hold our lives secure
Ending my August with loads of things to prepare and liase for an end, tons of messages to reply, some are really hard to but I really want too :') because its complicated but with a heartfelt prayer knowing that you are well on the other side...

He is orchestrating all around me, composing a beautiful melody, and scripting a plan for me- A perfect plan which is something which I really could not comprehend.
I believe in the beautiful melody