Love Story || ❤

Anyway, here's our story! 

2008:
 Kee and Ave met in Kent Ridge Secondary School. Their CCA was band! They never knew one another before though attending the same primary school. 

One of those ordinary day during band practice. Kee saw Ave fixing her instrument in the band room and that's where he found this girl unique and pretty interesting (not beauty)..
but 

He knew that he could not reconciled the fact that he was still recovering from his ex-girlfriend. 

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2008:
  Kee continues to attend Band, and was delighted when Ave was moving to percussion section. The opportunity given allowed the next level of friendship to form. Ave knew that Kee likes her as he was pretty obvious and people around her dropped hint. Ave wasn't responding well to Kee as he wasn't a Christian and assumed that he weren't serious. :( 

2008: 
One of Kee's friends invited him to Church and that's where he found out that Ave was in the same cell group with him. Attending one of the cell groups back then, he "accidentally" invited Jesus into his heart . (another story). Whoa! An unexpected new discovery and adventurous ahead for Kee to explore and we could see how God planned beautifully for an unforeseeable circumstance.   

2009-2010:
Kent Ridge Campus Group and Band Practices were the sparkling moments where they fell in love with one another.  Stalking and imaginations took place, unaccountable feelings were unexpressed and led each other into confusions and frustrations. 

2011-2014: 

Ave decided to withdraw her feelings.
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Silence.  
Kee and Ave met up together with her leaders. An unforgettable and horrendous night for both parties (at least back then in 2011) Kee had to face rejection, heart-brokenness, and humility. Ave had a fair share of struggle of guilt and overwhelmed emotions. Both Ave and Kee walked a different path as transitions were talking place. Without a doubt, they began to admire opposite-gender and were definitely praying for a life partner. Somehow or rather, Kee returned to West Zone, serving the Lord faithfully.

Through the ministries serving together, Kee constantly expressed his liking to Ave in little obvious ways.
 Ave was praying. She then discovered the faithfulness of one's heart all these years (which is partly a reason why she decided to trust in God in this area of her life :') 

2015: 

6 months of personal prayer for Ave. Amazingly, God allowed Ave's heart to be soften and dwelt with issues in her life back then in 2009. Unexpectedly, Ave fell in love with Kee again. A divine opportunity for both parties to sit down together once again to express themselves. Timely! 
Trusting our authorities' guidance, we were official on the 7th July 2015. ♡

 "Blessing flows and deep assurance of peace overwhelm- from both God and men."

Ave has always remembers what her Pastor said, "If its God's will, He will provides opportunities for us to reconcile and work together again." It was then how Ave held on to His promises despite the seasons that changed. 

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You know what, it is not the greatest love story but a journey of faithfulness. 

I am glad God kept the both of pure and ready for a beautiful journey ahead. We may not be ready in every aspects but always ready to pray and seek God for help. Prayer was truly one that I kept close to my heart, the voice of God was then the source of hope I depend on. For years, I ran away from the Voice and Peace tugging in my heart but still He caught be back.

7 years of friendship, 1.5 months of relationship: Rocky-fun and working towards a firm foundation! Amen?
 We are still discovering how to love each other and  learning what it means to remain the center of God's love and will for us. 
I truly look forward to walking together, seeking God's will together, praying for each other together, quarreling together, loving together, discovering each other together,  serving together.... 
Thank you once again, love.

You decide..

Love cannot remain by itself--it has no meaning. Love has to be put into action and that action is service. Whatever form we are, able or disabled, rich or poor, it is not how much we do, but how much love we put in the doing; a lifelong sharing of love with others.

Dear God, I thank You for what's ahead in my life. This new season, new vision and story that You had began writing.. I pray that I will keep praising and praying to glorify Your name.  Allow my eyes to fix on the Perfecter of Faith. Many a times, my faith wears out. I ran out of words to express myself to tell people how am I  & I may not understand the process yet I know it is Your Love- one that captivates and kept me going. 
The workload seems like a hurricane, the inner battles are fighting strong. The mixed feelings as humans compare with each other about what love truly is. Is it measurable, seen-able or touchable? Stand in the center of our lives that we will be Your hands and feet- a blessing. Be our Light that guides. Fill in this gap within my heart. Amen.

新的異象，新的方向  - Love especially this full band :') 

Favor of God

Little motivation that kept me going. Unknowingly or knowingly, friendships are build! 

I found this little favor of man- from God upon me and my one desire is just to honor and glorify Him. I am afraid of burnout, yet I know that I have little strength and encouragement from everywhere to keep me moving and running.. 

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I miss my dearie :'( 

Love story

Happy 1st Mon-iversary! :) 

This season is one where I treasure a lot- much more.
 Transition after transition till the point where I felt I needed time to breathe, not sure about you but I guess so? Once again, am truly blessed to be found at where I am and not many has the opportunity studying your passion at the age of 21, pursuing it at a short-amount of time! 

Secretly desiring things would slow down, steady and sweet so that I can sway along with the melody He composes for me. I want to dance in Your embrace.
 Many times, I acknowledge that my faith wears out. The music gets louder when I've been told to pick up my sword and fight. Tempting because its unquestionable- that is how to world works. 

Anyway, here's our story! 

Kee and Ave met in Kent Ridge Secondary School. Their CCA was band! They never knew one another before though attending the same primary school. 

One of those ordinary day during band practice. Kee saw Ave fixing her instrument in the band room and that's where he found this girl extraordinary and pretty interesting (not beauty)..
but 

He knew that he cannot not like her because he was still recovering from a broke up in P6! (He was quite serious back then) 

To be continued...

One desire

Sometimes, caught in between your emotions and needed to face reality can be really difficult. The feeling of abandonment, caught in between the pit of falling. The fear of showing one's feelings because it felt as if i am playing with fire that will get burned. Ouch! The only way to express was to Cry- the way to show emotions and vulnerability. I would say, I am learning to be broken before men.

Yet, the one thing I could ask this season is to be with You,  to dwell and seek Your face for comfort and strength.
My one desire, is to be where you are, and its more than a song but being with You. :')

Silly

You, silly :')

Good news!

Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life, and I will live in the house of the LORD forever.
Psalm 23:6 

Good news!
I am excited of what's ahead of me after receiving an important call during Church Camp, Receiving this scholarship is really one that is significant to me. I am thankful to God this season of my life and I am surely seeing how things work for good for those who love Him. Remembering one of those seasons where God reminded me of Romans 8:2- a verse that kept me going to see His promises fulfilling in my life. True enough, my season of prayers had poured out much blessings in my life. I don't know what lies ahead 3-4 years down the road, but I am believing that He still holds the master plan! There's much administration matters to settle on Monday, hopefully that things will go well despite the tight schedule of work :') 

Allowing him in, at this season of my life was divine and timely. Looking back at various memorable events that took place in each of our lives are like puzzles thrown everywhere. Its messy, disordered and weird in shapes that probably need chiseling. Yet, God's faithfulness, love and perfect timing had allowed things to work out in ways we could not understand, bringing 2 different people together. No matter how far we were, he still brings us back! Its a testimony! Obedience was a lesson I had learnt and I am still learning and my prayer is we will continue to walk in Obedience, His ways and Will for our lives. 

I truly delight in this season, knowing that its difficult due to timing differences yet God also allows one-two weeks of grace and love allowing us to build in deeper measures, enabling us to work and talk about our differences and similarities. Sharing openly and communicating with each other are utmost important as we learn to build each other up. Relationship isn't a game but a commitment- a commitment even when feelings fade away.

I am thankful for him, and I just couldn't express myself with words and all that I could say is "Thank you." I am eager to do life with this man that God had placed in my life,  I am excited to plan what's ahead with him, I am steamed up to discover God's will for our lives, I am nervous/fearful yet enthusiastic to hear and share, to give and pray, lastly to love this man God has. I sincerely do not know how to be a good partner, I am exploring and desire to follow after God's heartbeat. I will definitely fail, but I want to trust!
Again, I don't know what lies ahead, but I believe His promises will be fulfilled in our lives in ways we could not see. 

Am grateful

The peace I felt, there's nothing I am more grateful for :') Thank you dearest. My prayer is that we would continue to spur and strengthen each other up in ways we will discover, Amen. ❤ 

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Then you will realize that real love isn’t just a euphoric, spontaneous feeling—it’s a deliberate choice—a plan to love each other for better and worse, for richer and poorer, in sickness and in health. Of course, you don’t choose who you’re attracted to, but you definitely choose who you fall in love with and (more importantly) who you stay in love with.

Our society places a lot of emphasis on feelings. We are taught that we should always follow our feelings and do whatever makes us happy. But feelings are very fickle and fleeting. Real love, on the other hand, is like the north star in the storms of life; it is constant, sure, and true. Whenever we’re lost and confused we can find strength in the love that we have chosen.

Besides, life already offers us plenty of spontaneity: rejection, job loss, heartache, disappointment, despair, illness, and a host of other problems. We simply can’t abandon ship every time we encounter a storm in our marriage. Real love is about weathering the storms of life together.

Love is so much more than some random, euphoric feeling. And real love isn’t always fluffy, cute, and cuddly. More often than not, real love has its sleeves rolled up, dirt and grime smeared on its arms, and sweat dripping down its forehead. Real love asks us to do hard things—to forgive one another, to support each other’s dreams, to comfort in times of grief, or to care for family. Real love isn’t easy—and it’s nothing like the wedding day—but it’s far more meaningful and wonderful.

Faithfully

A song that was in my heart this season. It was truly after reading the book that had blessed me so much :') I just want to keep believing and trusting in one's answer even if I fear. Most importantly, God's will and His timing!  
One of the series of miracles I had learnt and still learning is, You remaining in the center and it will grow beautifully .. I'll trust! 

Faithfully

Tonight I saw a shooting star

Made me wonder where you are

For years I have been dreaming of you

I wonder if you're thinking of me too

In this world of cheep romance

Love that only friends are throught the dance

Say that I'm a fooled away for something more

How can I really love someone I've never seen before

I am long for true love every day that I had lived

And I know real love is all about learning how to give

I pray that God will bring you to me

I pray you'll find me, waiting faithfully. 

Faithfully, I am yours from now until forever 

Faithfully, I will write, write you a love song with my life

Cause this kind of love's worth waiting for, 

No matter how long it takes, I am yours, faithfully

Tonight I saw two lovers kiss

Reminding me of my own lonely

Say that I am a fool to keep on praying for you

How can I give a pleasure for a dream that won't come true

I will keep believing that God still has a plan

And though I can not see you now, I know that He can

And someday I will give you all of me

Until I find you, I'm waiting faithfully.

Braver, Stronger, Smarter

One of the most lovable and charming characters in the history of cartoon animation has to be Winnie the Pooh. He simply oozes adorableness and positivity.

In the film, “Pooh’s Grand Adventure: The Search for Christopher Robin,” Pooh and Christopher Robin, who are the closest of friends, have a moving conversation high in a tree where strength and love flow heart-to-heart as a beautiful words are spoken.

Christopher Robin: "Oh, Pooh. If ever there's a tomorrow when we're not together, there's something you must remember."

Pooh: "And what might that be, Christopher Robin?"

Christopher Robin: "You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."

Pooh: "Oh, that's easy. We're braver than a bee, and, uh, longer than a tree, and taller than a goose... or, uh, was that a moose?"

Christopher Robin: "No, silly, old bear! You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is even if we're apart; I'll always be with you. I'll always be with you. I'll always be with you."

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Simplicity means a state of being

simple, freedom from complexity, and pretentiousness. 

Living in a world of simplicity may bring you to a place of being silly to (some people) yet it is also entering into the beauty and simplicity of God's design. Our minds and hearts are the ones that pursue after the complexity of life which resulted one's heart to fear of rejection, or simply to fear. 

I would then desire to live in a world of simplicity, pursuing after the beauty of His design- Even if I fear; fear of being rejected; fear of losing out, fear of ...  

John 16:33

Dear June,

Saying goodbye to natural curl hair, missing it much but an adventure faith venture this morning! 

Dear TomsPa. Thank you for sweetening my today...

Dear June, I am super exhausted physically.
Can I receive you with joy and gladness? Can I trust you and watch series of miracles happening? Honestly, I am not prepared to throw you my all, June.  but I want to remain faithful and believe me, you will find me waiting faithfully for you :') 

To see, to feel or to pray? Can someone get me out of this pool of confusion, and question marks, these heart's and human battle? 

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RESTART

Nobody says, ‘Okay, you’re going to enter this strange world of first-in-class and best-in-studies, this strange world of looking good and acting cool… this strange world of boyfriends and… no boyfriends.’ And suddenly you’re supposed to deal with everything on your own. 

- Scripted by RESTART

This strange world, I believe it is because I am standing on this ground. Now that RESTART is over. I truly believe in the midst of this humbling process, I had learnt how to lead and made decisions. I had learnt what it means to give my all in the midst of my busy schedules. Learning the prioritize my time and handling the needs of my members and my life. 

Sometimes it isn't about standing at the front line; or being the one scripting the script; directing the music, or performing to the audience (though I secretly love to because its always my dream, haha :') Sometimes,  the applaud, the approval, the admiration and the blinking eyes from the audience, praising and telling you, " Good Job, and well done," are the source of energy moving ahead. Honestly, who doesn't want? 

I do, but He was a constant reminder this season.  I gave because He gave. It was at the lowest point of breaking, I then realized I stood at this strange world that not everyone cares.. 

There's more than you could ever know behind the scenes. Because behind the scenes, He was turning my ashes into beauty: my ashes: my past scenes and hurts, my wrong decisions, one's heart to be vulnerable and broken, my love. ALL these in front of my stage. Guilt and fears overwhelmed, what if one is unable to forgive my past, what if one despises my stories, what if that's the way I need to face my consequences ? My heartbeat rapidly dropped, sincerely praying that it won't be.   

Even though I've got the lines rehearsed, a picture only paints a thousand words. Sometimes I can't see anything. through the dark surrounding me. And at times I'm unsure about the ground

beneath my feet, if it's safe and sound. Here.

I wouldn't say I had truly overcome my stage because it seems intangible and afterall I want to picture it, seeing the beauty in His perfect timing and I would love to be transparent with one's heart. I will! 

But I am thankful for RESTART, because restarting with God is the most beautiful journey.

Will you too RESTART? 

Who am I?

Subconsciously, I compare myself with you 

Subconsciously, I asked if you are better

Subconsciously, I realized I am nothing 

Subconsciously,  my senses ran out of control, eyeing on things on earth 

and forget my eternal value.
Who am i?

Someone that is created to love and to be loved ? 

To embrace and to be embraced ?  

My heart didn't slow down its rapid.

I guess in the midst of all, the most beautiful thing is  the art of losing myself  in bringing You praise. Tiring and needed encouragement because its tons of work. Lost for words yet knowing that I am a... 

"I am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean. A vapor in the wind.
Still You hear me when I'm calling. Lord, You catch me when I'm falling.
And You've told me who I am. I am Yours, I am Yours"

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I have finally completed Janice's book- the one she lent it to me.
Beautiful song and lovely lyrics from the Story of "When God writes my love story." Here.

It is soon, be patience!

Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. PS 27:14

I am confident of the timing of God. I truly believe it is soon, so be patience and wait :') One month or two? I'm not sure! Because the time-table of God- "Soon" is not ours. But as always, awfully astounded by His perfect plan this season. I was reading Psalms 27 in the morning. David was one man in the Bible that learns to wait upon God in the midst of troubles and chaos. 

He knew something- the beauty of the Lord, the infinite and transcendent amiableness of the divine being and perfections; His holiness is His beauty (Ps. 110:3 ), His goodness is His beauty. The harmony of all his attributes is the beauty of his nature.  Because of that, when we learn to wait upon His beauty, His perfect plans would then be seen in our lives. Let's await in the quietness and beauty of God. Yep, Its time you still believe again! I am truly looking forward as He bought me closer and feeling peaceful each time I pray. :') 

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