Wondering

Have been wondering why.

& i think i found the answer.

Was watching a repeated movie (Xiao Hai bu Ben 2)at my Gugu's house. It was amazing how i was personally touched even though i had watched it so many times. But this time round its a different view, its a different perceptive. Another "Onion" that God has to peel. Get what i mean? ha!

It was a particular scene about Tom and Jerry where they "Rebelled." What their parents saw was that they had became "rotten apple", and kids that cannot be controlled anymore.

But what i saw was Brokenness, a simple love that they needed.

I m able to relate this to myself was because He was prompting this in my heart. LOVE. Well, i did not rebel, but something in my heart i know i needed. A father's love, a father's figure i would say.

Towards the Last part of the movie says "Its not that your father doesnt love you, he loves you, but he doesnt know how to express this love to you."

I asked God, "God, does he really loves me?" At that moment, i felt frustration in my heart, but at the same time, i understand and i know why.

& that gives people an answer.